I was reading the Ensign (LDS Magazine) this morning and an excerpt from Elder Holland hit home. He suggested that we should pray a little more, study a little more, find solace, etc so that when life's struggles come you will have a little more inside to rely on.
I was looking on facebook and found a friend that had messaged me to get together. I looked at her profile and it listed her as divorced. I said outloud, "what the crap?!". She was in our adoption class and we stayed in touch through our adoptions. I wonder. . . is it all too much? Is the infertility, adoption, etc. . all too much to handle. Can a marriage stay together? I am sure many marriages do stay together but shouldn't this amazing thing keep you together??
Our birth mother chose us because we had been together for 5 years and she didn't want Bella to have parents who were divorced because her own parents were divorced and she did not want that for her daughter. I don't blame her. I wouldn't want that for my daughter. My own husband walked right out the door while we were sleeping.
My daughter is not a priority in his life. Just last night he chose a party over spending time with her. He has not seen her in a week and chose to go to a work party rather than see her. She chose us, our deceased relatives assisted, Christ chose us, so many people chose us to parent her and her father chooses a party over her. He is going to hell in a hand basket is all I have to say about that!
